My damn hip is driving me nuts. It's nowhere near as bad as it was last year when I finally caved in and went to my doctor about it. She said it was 'Sacral-iliac joint dysfunction' and told me to go to physio for it. Have I? Of course not. It did go away on its own for a long time. Now it's flaring up again.

It's only to the point that it makes it hard to sleep comfortably, not the point where going up and down stairs is an exercise in pain management. heh. At least Advil helps.

Anyway, that's why I'm up early. Been up since about 6:45am. Actually had my coffee on the porch in my new PJs. (They're so tacky, I love them. Think teal blue tank top and shorts with little chicks and "Chiky" all over them.) I also started to figure out what we need to do in the next couple days for the weekend. Today is more laundry, groceries and hopefully a quick trip to Mark's to get me a couple more of their wonderful Tank tops.

We ended up going to Wal-Mart yesterday before Canadian Tire because My Sister needed shorts and sandals. I figured since she was looking at shorts, I might as well go disappoint myself with the lack of shorts for fat women. Boy was I disappointed. They had shorts, lots of them. Several styles in microfibre board shorts, denim shorts and khaki shorts. I walked out finally with 2 pairs of denim and 1 pair of Khaki shorts for $35.

I've been having a really hard time this summer. First with the weight gain and the associated self-image issues, then with well... clothes. I don't feel that this size I'm at now is an accurate balanced weight for me. I fully expect to drop back down to my normal 18/20 once I stabilize. But I'm big enough now that almost everything I own doesn't fit me. There are no words for how shitty that feels.

Anyway, I'm not willing to shell out good money on good clothes for a size I don't think I'll be at next summer. So, I've been on a quest to find inexpensive but not crappy summer clothing. Not a chance in hell. Zellers doesn't even carry shorts in their plus-size lines. Cotton Ginny closed. Addition-elle is too damn expensive even for my 'normal' sized self. Penningtons isn't bad, but a bit pricier than I would prefer.

Finding not one, but three pairs of shorts that fit and don't make me look like my mother is heaven, let me tell you! Just need a couple more Tank Tops and an overshirt and I'm done. I also finally gave in and packed away the clothes that don't fit.

Well, if I want to get the shopping done before it gets nasty hot, I should post this and get moving.