Little over an hour to go until Julie gets here. After this I should probably go have my shower. Yeah yeah, I know I said first thing in the morning. But then, first thing this morning at 6:45, I looked around, realized how dark and quiet it was and decided that adding in the noise of the shower was a bad idea. Granted the only way to wake up Sara would involve tossing her in the shower. I'll have to figure out a better time of day to do it.

I think I talk about routines as a way to avoid talking about what's eating at me. There's also the feeling that I can only say so much about being depressed out of my mind before it repeats. But then I repeat talking about really boring shit like 30 minute tidies, etc. Gah.

Mike and I fought last night. We never fight so when we do it always feels bigger than it is. I hate bringing up chores and work distribution ever because it's such a sore spot for me, and he's almost always annoyed about it. I swear, we need to hire a maid to come in and take some of the weight off. I have no interest in being the 'happy housewife'. I just want to live in a clean home.

I think I may do some beading with Julie today. I have a bracelet with three garnet beads on it that have a lot of emotional meaning to me. I want to make something I'll wear with them as the focus. Right now they're just 3 beads on a bracelet of dozens. We'll see.

I don't have any words today. It's not a good day or a bad day yet; it's just there. There was fog this morning and it was beautiful. I itched for the camera. That's a good thing. I'm at least looking and seeing images again. Now to get batteries. Hah. I need to clean my desk.

And that's an extremely boring 15 minutes. ;)