Ok, a 15 minute entry. Haven't done one of these in a while. But I kind of feel like my day is slipping away from me already, so I don't really want to spend a lot of time writing at this point.

I think my last entry was my wee temper tantrum about how tired I was. Hoo boy, those side effects weren't fun. Most of them have passed at this point. I don't feel much better but Mike says I'm less cranky and irritable, so they must be working at least a little bit. I'd rather be cranky and have some drive and focus back instead, but I'll take what I can get at this point.

I was hoping to wash the car today; it's gotten gross again with all the salt. A black car is not the loveliest thing in the middle of winter. But it's raining, so there's no real point yet. Hopefully we'll have another above 0 day this week, sans the rain and I can tackle it then. Not that I think I really have time yet.

Somewhere in this week I need to do my SW accounting for 2004, so I can do our taxes, etc. I go to Toronto tomorrow to see my doctor, and then Wednesday is earmarked for Julie and Sami. Thursday and Friday have potential. We'll see. I also want to sit down and sew at some point as well.

Time keeps running away from me, it feels like. It's already 11am, and I've gotten a fair amount done; laundry, photoblog, emails, tidied. But it feels like I haven't done anything "real" yet. Wonder why that is. Wonder why I dismiss anything I do at home to maintain it as not real... traps me into feeling lazy and useless. Hmm, something to poke at next time I sit down with my paper journal.

So many little things that need my attention, I feel so overwhelmed sometimes. I haven't let myself focus on it at all, I just try to do what I can each day, but the pressure lives and lurks in the back to my head. Muttering away about "needs to be done! Needs to be done! No time! No time!" Damn thing. Need to keep perspective and balance though, if I push too hard, I will burn out. I always do.

And I always seem to push myself too hard anyways. "I know better" seems to be my motto sometimes. *laughs* I don't know, today's to-do list seems reasonable. I just need to keep myself level about it all and see how I feel once I'm done. Let tomorrow sort itself out once it begins.

And that's 11 minutes, but I think I'm done. *laughs*