The always great and wonderful Monday morning has arrived. Along with the every week sense of not getting everything I wanted done on the weekend. Granted my list of things I want to get done in my days is obscenely long and ambitious. I should simply be happy that I finally made it to Yoga class on Saturday. I wasn’t able to do the entire class – my back objected about midway through the “forward facing dog” or whatever she called it – but I went and did as much as I could.

I realized this weekend that my hand strength is getting more and more pathetic. I’m considering picking up one of those hand spring thingies that are designed to increase your hand strength from Dollarama. I think I’m losing muscle strength all the way around because of how bad my back hurts. I get all wimpy and overly careful about what I’m willing to do when I’m at the gym or even at home. Going to have to do something about that as well – losing muscle strength is just going to make my pain issues worse.

I think a goal I’m going to set myself for this week is to go explore the Athletic Complex here on campus. If I know where everything is and what’s available I might be able to convince myself to pop into the gym for a quick workout some morning. Fear of the unknown, baby!

I think as much as I want to be exercising my artistic self, it’s just not important to me right now. I’m looking around this gorgeous space (the science building atrium area) just filled with lines, trees and light and I see dozens of great photographs… and I don’t regret that my camera is at home. That does make me a bit sad when I acknowledge it, but not sad enough that I want to add the extra weight of the camera to my backpack load.

*ponder* Perhaps this is something the pain has taken from me. Hard to focus on beauty and capturing that beauty when there’s the fear that the pain is going to come back and steal my breath from me. But it also gives me a focus as well. I need to get my strength back, I need to make the pain go away, I need to take care of my physical self right now.

How incredibly boring. *laughs*