So a quick until the laundry timer goes entry, mainly to break the bad habit of not writing at all lately. Today is a chore day for me, trying to get caught up with laundry and dishes, to lose a bit of the feeling that I'm slipping. I keep getting exhausted again around mid-afternoon, but I think it's the Zoloft. We've increased the dose again and I suspect I'm re-adjusting.

I've been having random ideas to journal about, based on the books I've been reading, things that happen in my silly pirate game, my relationships with other people. All the usual idea fermenting fabulousness. I just haven't taken then time to sit down and type. Not sure exactly why. I'm doing a lot better depression wise, but there's still the little off kilter bits here and there.

I've joined a gym in the last month, and I love going to it. I go with Julie most times, but I've snuck in a couple visits on my own over the past couple weeks. I had a fitness assessment as a part of my membership and it was *funny* and mildly sad. The only thing I didn't score "dear god, you're about to die, you're so unfit!" on were the crunches. Yay for physio exercises! I look forward to being a lot better by the time of the next assessment.

I've lost my balance again, gotten sucked completely into my silly game again. I think it's a mix of reasons. But the reasons don't matter too much right now, just finding my balance again is much more important to me. I need to find the time to do all the wonderful things that make me happy. And take care of the needs that need to get taken care off too. I know I can do it; I'm just out of balance and have to work at it again, alas.

Ahh well. Just a day at a time, right? Today I do this little cheapass entry, the laundry, some dishes, play my game, pick up the various chaos we leave behind us as a family... and see what happens. Tomorrow I'm spending time with a fabulous young man. See if I can trick him into crawling for me. *laughs*

Patience just isn't my virtue though, I don't want to take the slow time it takes to rebuild routines and balance again. But, that's the way it goes.

Ok, that enough rambling out of me for today. Perhaps next time I'll natter about my big thoughts.