A bit of time before class starts. I had intended to spend this morning doing laundry and finishing up my homework that’s due tomorrow. Nothing is ever that simple, eh? Got downstairs, loaded the washers, dumped the detergent in and put the coins in… on one of the washers in the room. The other was jammed. Ended up taking all 6 loads of neglect, er laundry, to the Laundromat. Finally got home again at noon, spent a bit of time putting clothes away and getting my bag ready for school before heading out again.

So here I am. I figure I’ll sit in lecture, take notes and then work on my mini paper and my portfolio entries afterwards. One of the downfalls of going home to work on it is my desk is an unholy disaster area. One of the benefits of working at school is the work area is always clear. Granted the noise of the other people wouldn’t be a plus… nah, I’ll stay.

I’m so very tired today and I don’t even really have a good reason why. I did manage to get some decent sleep last night, finally. I’m really looking forward to this weekend. Mike and my 5th anniversary is tomorrow and to celebrate we’re going to Ottawa to geek out on the museums. We’re leaving right after class on Thursday and driving there. Hopefully well get in before 11pm. I also want to check out some of the bead stores there.

I think part of what’s been getting to me is how much I feel like I’m not meeting expectations. My own, of course. The dishes aren’t done, laundry piled up, I’m doing my homework the day before it’s due, we’re not having much in the way of decent meals, I keep eating out, I don’t make it to the gym, I spend no time with my friends, etc, etc, etc. I know intellectually that it’s going to take a good amount of time to adjust and figure out what my new routines look like. And I’ve been making an effort. So I need to cut myself some slack and just take it as it comes.

Easier said than done, as always. I’m still just as tired as I was 10 minutes ago with just as much stuff on my plate that needs to be done. I think it’s in part because things don’t go the way they’re supposed to. I make plans and then some random fuck up happens and suddenly there’s no time left to do my plans. See: laundry this morning. I got nothing done on my assignment yet today because of that. Granted I could’ve only done one load and patch fixed the lack of clothes once again.

There’s has to be some way to balance the day to day running of my life and being a student. It can just be a straightforward time from one is taken from the other. Plus what the hell am I going to do when I go full time? My workload will at minimum double, my class hours will do the same, and I’ll need to make dedicated time from each day to keep on top of it all.

I guess I expected to be able to adjust and just go. Not quite that easy. *sighs* Someday I’ll stop posting and bitching about this all. Maybe? Please? Oi.